Where I've Been

I'm doing my best, and hope you are too.

If you’re reading this, first off, thank you for your support. I don’t get a great opportunity to interact directly with my readers, so it is tremendously appreciated.

I wanted to provide a quick update, as it’s been a few months since my last piece. I apologize above all else, as I am touched by so many of you who express to me how meaningful or helpful you find some of these pieces to be. That provides me more personal value than you can possibly imagine.

Frankly, the past few months, I have been dealing with a combination of circumstances that have left me exhausted, creatively dry, and with severe writer’s block. I have started and stopped more than 10 pieces since January, simply because I can’t find the words to properly say. I never want to give you a piece that isn’t fully formed and authentic to me, because I sit and agonize after I hit publish on what I consider to be a “good” piece as is.

The world around us is changing at a rapid pace. I have been immensely gutted by the erosion of our republic here in the United States, and I fear the world the next generation will grow up in is going to be the most bitter reflection of us. I have had friends and colleagues tangibly affected by our new normal, and my heart breaks for how cold and callous we are as a society right now. I also happened to get laid off for the second time in three years a few months back due to downsizing, which has put significant strain on my brain space to write in the way that I want to.

Oh, and I also had a brief health scare that spooked the shit out of me. Get your screenings folks, no matter how old or young you may be.

I’m hanging in there, and I hope you are too. I appreciate you more than you know. We’ll be back soon with something that you hopefully find helpful. Some of these pieces take months to write, some just minutes. Some of them are from a headspace of the present, others from years ago. Their true meanings are often up for interpretation, and quite literal on other occasions. It just makes me so happy to know they mean so much to you.

The feedback I got from my last entry was overwhelming, and it hurt my heart to hear how many of you have shared in that feeling. It was immensely difficult for me to write, and honestly, took a ton out of me emotionally (which may be in part why I have had so much writer’s block as well). If you haven’t checked it out yet, I encourage you to, though I do warn it is heavy.

I started this as a passion project almost two years ago after having started working on a book prior to that. It’s a creative outlet to get my thoughts out properly, and each of these passages takes so much out of me emotionally (and at times, physically). They are at times heavy, but ultimately, reflections of healing, and I hope you find that in them as well.

For now, please re-read some of the selections from the archive, as I think they all will resonate with you in different ways. Keep fighting the good fight, and be kind to those around you.

We’ll talk soon.

“Someday, girl, I don’t know when, we’re gonna get to that place where we really wanna go…”